I’ve been headbutting blogging lately in terms of reading and writing for multiple reasons. First, M.T.’s requiring considerably more attention from me lately and my schedule has turned itself upside down – I don’t have a lot of time to spend with my computer aside from brief Facebook interactions. And mostly – because I’ve been working on making a hard decision.
I went in to 50k training with an acknowledgement that I may not be able to complete it or actually make it to the Deception Pass 50k. I have almost fully arrived at the decision not to. I’m tired of being injured. Increasing my distance with each week’s long run isn’t feeling good in ways I shouldn’t be pushing through. I am making the choice to let go, focus on healing and strengthening my body and potentially resume some form of marathon training in early 2014. And while my legs and lower back are breathing a sign of relief, my heart is aching a little bit and my brain is spinning. I admit – I’ve been hiding from my blog a little bit. So, I need to find something else to focus on. Blogging is good therapy, no?
One thing that has happened while I’ve been battling these injuries is that I have put on some weight largely due to emotional eating and obviously, a change in my activity level. I am thinking that perhaps a focus on nutrition might be a good place to start? I would like to discuss this more, but I am trying to get through my first full day without sugar or refined carbs. I don’t want to tip the scale with too much thought about food. :)
So yeah. My blog is going to be a little bit different for a while. It may end up evolving – sometimes I look at the header and think it was a previous chapter. But I think I also need to hold on to the woman in the top left. She was a good person… I need to feel more compassion for her. There’s more than just food and calories that drives a person to be over 300 lb.
Anyway, I’m not super thrilled about this blog post and I apologize it isn’t longer, doesn’t have pictures, and is sort of more my stream of consciousness blobbity-bloo but getting this decision out there about Deception Pass wasn’t easy for me to bring myself to do. So I figured, getting it out is getting it out. It doesn’t have to be pretty. I just need to get it out. And apparently some more came out with it. Back to my comment about blogging being good therapy. :)